"In the throes" or "Perfectionist shit."

This is another post that I titled, then quit. I planned to write about how I get something 95% done and then just can't and don't want to finish it. I think once it is done, it will be done. And if it isn't just right, I'll never go back and fix it.

This reminds me of my dad. I hate to say this because one of his all time worst behaviors was to begin something. Notice that sentence stopped after "begin?" He was exceedingly methodical, so he would take something apart and have every piece, every screw, every minutiae lined up just so. Usually on the floor somewhere. And then he'd leave it. AAArrgh. I remember that there was an approximate 4 square foot area on our dining room floor that couldn't be touched/cleaned/messed with for months. My mom used to clean and mop around it. sigh.

And now I am seeing this streak in me! Oh no! It is enough to make me get in gear and get it done.